Sunday, June 5, 2011

Training Camp

As most of you know, I left for El Paso on Wednesday, the first.  For the past few days my team (who is rather awesome) and several others.  We did a strength finders test a few months ago and have spent time going over those with our teammates, had seminars on poverty, working with kids, running a Bible study and lots of other things. There are a lot of little things to share but the most amazing thing is what happened last night.

Last night we had a very special dinner. One of our sponsors, Norm, sent us into the dining hall one by one and gave us all a number which coordinated with a space in the room.  3 of us got to sit at a fancy table and had a several course meal.  4 of us sat at a table and had soup, some sort of potato and meat bowl and bread, I think.  7 of us were restricted to a taped space on the floor and were served rice and beans with water to drink. And then the rest of us (9) sat in an even smaller space on the floor and were given a plastic bowl of rice and a cup of water.

I was in the last group and this was an amazing experience. We gave thanks for our food, understanding that this was more than some people were getting to eat in the world and then passed around the bowl, taking one bite at a time and then the cup, one sip at a time.  At first the two boys, Ross and Nelson, did not want to eat any of it because of the slideshow we had just seen telling us many different facts and statistics about hunger and malnutrition in the world.  However, after we talked a bit more they decided that if they were in a situation where that truly was all the had to eat that day (we had had breakfast and lunch earlier) they would take advantage of that and eat it.  After everyone had had about 3 bites we gave the last little bit to the two girls in our group who are going to India, because they are taking malaria pills and not eating would cause them to get sick. 

After we had finished eating we started talking and playing games.  However, Marty, another one of our sponsors had to constantly come up to us and tell us to be quiet because we were disturbing the people at the tables or "in the other countries".  We also had to sit down, because that made us too noticable, even though the floor was making our butts sore and there was barely enough room for us all to sit in our little country. We were, however, allowed to stand up one at a time for about a minute.

After everyone was done eating (some took longer than others, obviously), we got to talk about our experiences.  We shared ours and the team who had rice and beans shared how they gulped down all of their rice and beans, even though one of them hates beans as much as I do (and that's a freakish amount) and one girl dropped some on the floor, she picked it up and ate it.  She wanted to understand as much as possible what some people go through.  When you don't have enough for your whole family to eat, you don't let anything go to waste.  The group that got soup had a very hard time.  They had tried, but were not allowed to share with those of us sitting on the floor and did not want to eat, but knew it was how the simulation was supposed to be.  However, when we had looked over during the mealtime my darling teammate Katie was crying, so we tried not to look at her so she wouldn't feel worse.  Both the group with the soup and the group with the several course meal (it was 4 or 5, I'm not sure) had the hardest time, I think.  They wanted to share food with us but could not.  When they were full the extra food was put into a trash bin that was in the center of the room.

Kai, was at the fancy table and told us that she could feel God's heart breaking for the way we have screwed up this world. The world does indeed produce enough food for everyone one to be nourished. However, it is not distributed correctly.  I know that there is not a ton a single person can do but I know that if we are all a little more conscious about what is going on, change can happen. If we can feel the grief for our friends who we see barely eating anything for one night (and yes, three bits of rice along with a few sips of water truly was my entire dinner last night) than we can and SHOULD feel the grief of our brothers and sisters around the world who aren't even getting that. 

I know that this is going on a bit long, but I have one more exciting thing to say.  That night when we had our evening chapel-ish service thing, I felt God's presence undeniably, as did many, many others.  While I didn't mind it, because of the reason for it, I was very hungry.  But even though I was hungry, God was with me. And it felt like God was saying, "See? You're hungry and I'm with you. You know when you're in pain? I'm with you then too. When you're scared, when you're lonely, when you can't sleep, I'm there with you? Remember when I told you I didn't care about all the crap you've done and if you were willing to try again so was I? (totally in the Bible, best passage EVER) I meant it and I told you I would be there. And I am."

Then we sang this song.  There was this song about God's love and then it said that we could be the "carriers, of love and compassion".  There are many things I do not understand about the world and many things I don't understand about God. The thing I do know is that God wants all of us to be loved and one of his favorite tools to use is each other.  So now I know that the next time when I am presented with the opportunity to give food to someone who has none I can show them that love and I can also tell them what I have learned, that if you ask God to be with you he will never leave you, even when you are hungry.

1 comment:

  1. JJ,
    Thanks for this awesome post! I love to see how you respond when God has your complete attention, very cool.
    Sorry we missed your calls tonight. The choir had just started warming up when my phone went off and it was a number I didn't recognize. If you call again, we won't miss the call, I promise!!!
    Please tell your team we are praying for them all.
    I love you!